Dawn.Ｂanana 的树下

回家的感觉真不一样，又能吃到老妈做的早饭，又可以在我两米2宽的大床上滚来滚去，比起北京那可怜的小床真是天壤之别。记得在爱尔兰的时候，我跟jak睡的单人床，仅仅可以翻个身，而且还是原地的翻身，否则就要滚到床下去了，那个时候的日子可真凄惨。。。。。。

5个多月没有回鞍山了，这里还是老样子，开车在马路上永远都是那么的熟悉而又紧张，因为马车，三轮车，行人，自行车都在行车道上。。这就是鞍山的马路，突然降温到15度，着实的冷，我想北京也好不到哪去，我很欣慰，我的姥爷身体还是那么硬朗，尽管就剩下几颗牙了，他告诉我现在只能吃面条和豆腐，还有鸡蛋，别的东西都咬不动了。。真想领他老人家吃点好吃的，可是这就是他的长寿秘诀，人并不是吃山珍海味就可以长寿，而真正的长寿靠的是粗茶淡饭，难怪那些修身养性的道士各个都长寿呢。人总是得有一个好的心态，心态好了才能健康，我越发觉得09年后的我，心思变得越来越重，记得当年在北京求职的路上的时候，我提着重重的行李站在火车站前对着车来车往的马路，喃喃的自言自语，如果有一天我真的属于这里的时候，生活应该是个什么样子呢？而一年后的昨天，我再一次站在北京站的门前，淅淅沥沥的小雨告诉我，北京的生活是更加复杂的，我突然觉得自己变成了一个小学生，拿着笔记本戴着厚厚的大眼镜，一笔一划的写着那些发生的事和人，男人也好，女人也好！这些都已经发生了。甚至有些东西都没法落笔，我几乎用遍了身体每一个器官去体验这里新鲜的一切，就如同第一次闻到爱尔兰那充满草香花香的空气一样，我突然想起教过我的那些老师们，不知道他们对我现在的样子满意么。。。。

 

去花店给妈妈买了好多康乃馨，另外我要了三个大百合，花店的老板问我为什么不多买点百合，我说这象征着我们一家三口健康幸福，当我付完钱离开花店的时候可我又折回了花店，我要了另外一只百合，放了进去，老板说既然回来了，干嘛就买一只，我说，09年，我希望我的家里再多另外一个人。。老板，一位72岁的老奶奶，笑着说，小伙子加油吧！百合。。很美!

i'd cross the desert to be where you are
all the things
i'd do to be close to you
a million miles wouldn't seem that far
i'd go anywhere just to win your heart
but wherever this leads
there's something i need

i need love

the kind that makes you wanna live

the kind that makes you wanna breathe

the kind that makes you feel too much

and i need you

to help me find a better way

and i guess you never thought you'd hear me say
i need love
i need love
and when i see you i just lose my mind
you're the everything
i thought i'd never find
must be an angel watching over me
with a little luck
we're gonna make you mine
'cause i wanna believe (i want to believe)
in all we can be(all we can be)
and oh,
i will catch you when you fall
be the greatest love of all
i promise to be
if you give me what i need
i need
i need love
i need you
the kind that makes you feel
the one that makes you wanna live
the one that makes you wanna breathe
and i need you
to help me find a better way
and i guess you never thought you'd hear me say
i need love
i need love
i need love, baby
i need love
i'd cross the desert
i'd cross the desert to be where you are

my life is brilliant.

my life is brilliant.
my love is pure.
i saw an angel.
of that i'm sure.
she smiled at me on the subway.
she was with another man.
but i won't lose no sleep on that,
'cause i've got a plan.

you're beautiful. you're beautiful.
you're beautiful, it's true.
i saw your face in a crowded place,
and i don't know what to do,
'cause i'll never be with you.

yeah, she caught my eye,
as we walked on by.
she could see from my face that i was,
fucking high,
and i don't think that i'll see her again,
but we shared a moment that will last till the end.

you're beautiful. you're beautiful.
you're beautiful, it's true.
i saw your face in a crowded place,
and i don't know what to do,
'cause i'll never be with you.

you're beautiful. you're beautiful.
you're beautiful, it's true.
there must be an angel with a smile on her face,
when she thought up that i should be with you.

but it's time to face the truth,
i will never be with you.